I feel ugly

Ever had one of those days where you wake up, look in the mirror, and go “ugh”? You feel worn and exhausted. All your facial imperfections seem magnified. You see countless blackheads and scars on your skin that has never seemed drier. Your lips are chapped and blood-red from the wine you drank the night before. Your eyes are puffy, you have dark circles -half from being tired, half from the black-eyeliner that you never take off properly; your hair seems listless, your nail-polish is chipped, you feel fat.

Today is one of those days for me. It’s been a long time since I had one of these days. I’m not depressed or anything, it’s a day that resonates how you cannot afford to stop exercising, you should not drink every night, passive smoking is as bad as smoking yourself, you need 8-hours of sleep — at least a few times a week, you cannot live on Chinese food and coffee, and that you are totally responsible for your physical and mental well-being.

Lately, I have been working hard and partying harder. I have been having a great time but today when I woke up I was momentarily disturbed as I looked in the mirror and asked myself, was it worth it!?

I think I need to balance things out a bit. Sometimes you don’t have to seize every moment, most of the time there is tomorrow, so you just need to chill more often than not.

2 thoughts on “I feel ugly

  1. i felt the same thing today… but not ugly. More like .. “what the heck am i doing” and “am I doing the right thing?” kindda thang.

    I walked (not drove) to Mall of the Emirates and got myself a haircut. I kindda felt better after that. Maybe it trimmed away the negative vibes away as well.

  2. Learning to accept and love yourself no matter what you look like temporarily goes a long way too. Good for you for learning to slow down!

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