Today has been one of those days where you wake up bright and early, motivated, ready to seize the day and all that rubbish, make a constructive list of things to do, and land up doing everything BUT what’s on that list. ARGH.
Not to say that what I did wasn’t productive…ummm…well actually, it wasn’t productive at all. But it’s Saturday! That’s what I’m telling myself. But when you work for yourself, everyday can be Saturday and that realization takes no time to ruin your evening as you are left full of guilt for not having accomplished much.
See, my time spent = money earned. I.e. no productivity, no money. Great way of living you’d say, but it’s tougher than you realize. To be self-disciplined is one thing and to be motivated at the same time — all the time(!!!) — is another thing. To the extent, that today I almost envied people with a proper job, as they can afford to mess around some days, waffle and be completely unproductive — it’s not going to affect their paycheck.
Sigh. Oh well. There’s my little rant for the day. I’m not going to try to be productive anymore and am going to cook instead. Tomorrow is another day.